Chapter 69

tHe 19th BIRTHDAY bAsH!!!

“ahem…” *clear throat*
First and foremost,
Thanx to all who remembered and all your well wishes=)
WeeLiTing is gan-dong-daoOoOo…
Thanx to Lun, Shan, kar ann, zhitao, small jon, kit, sam, huimin, yiwen, ant, jinyu, timothy, wynee, mel, shihui, aunty linda, eileen, lijie, CHERRY, shuang, gim, silun, addy, YY, yenwei, honming, peishi, jiaolian, yingxian, bird, adeline, baowen, yuann shan, mei jie, khenglim, siewwen, cerrin, rabia…
Thanx for ur sms-es or online well wishes!!!

My 19th birthday started and ended with a BANG!!!
With many activities lined up, I really enjoyed myself to the fullest…
Thanx to all the peeps who were around…

12th April was spent working, with me and kar ann grabbing the BONUS at the end of the day!!!
THANX to lijie!!! haha… proclaiming that’s my bdae gift… Juice by you lor… haaha
Wahahahah…
After that we headed to have dinner at Maxwell food center…
And the lucky us ordered the last 5 bowls of Fried Sliced Fish BeeHoon…
It’s super-duper NICE can…
Up next was FUN games at Settlers till like 11 plus… 
Then the HAPPENING thing happened…
We headed to YY’s house. the open area under her flat to celebrate my bdae at 12 midnight sharp…
The birthday song, the PVI version, the phototaking sessions, the wishes, the cake…
It was a great countdown!!!
Until…
The moment I was preparing to blow out the candles, I was holding my breath, not allowing any carbon dioxide to escape, not even fart or anything…
Then…
Something really fast flew past and in a blink of an eye….
The flame went out..
We were all STUNNED…
and turn to look at the flying object…
YOU KNOW WHAT???
Its a POTATO!!! oMg…
someone from upstairs find us too noisy, she threw a potato down larh!!!!
hahahahah…. THANX to her man, she made my 19th bdae a really MEMORABLE one….
HAHAHA…

13th April, midnight…
We were mahjong-ing the whole night at YY’s place…
Headed home only in the morning…

I dozed off the moment my head hit the pillow…
When I woke up its like mid-day…
Washed up, got dressed, and I went off to meet the GANG!!!
Haha… we went for dinner…
Our usual bdae cake that the clique ALWAYS get for birthdays…
Mama-licious….
And it was more of a catching up session…
Really miss them tonnes…
So there were me, lun, shihui, shuang, gim, ant, khenglim, des…
Had loads of FUN even though we’re just chilling out…
It was the company that matters most=)

Now the presents…
Thanx to my cute juniors jes, les, amily, ahmina, ah bei and dear kOH for the havaianas flip-flops….

Next… Thanx to Timothy for the most expensive bdae present I ever received in my entire 19 years… Luv it man…

Thanx to the clique and gang, shihui, shuang, ant, gim, des, wx, liang, khenglim for the lovely gifts!!! MY fav PIGLET!!!

Thanx to YW darling for her wonderful creation…

And last but not least, LOVE Low for her 19 days surprise…
Oncoming and looking forward=)

So… 19th Birthday WISH…
Wish 19A is to earn more money and see myself excel in everything I do…
Wish 19B is to get into business course…
Wish 19C is SECRET!!!!

Thank yew you everyone for making this birthday of mine a really special and memorable one=)

Chapter 68

OK… before I start anything… I must MAINTAIN MY ATTITUDE due to the sudden lost of the entire blog entry!!!! Its 1.30am!!! blog for past half an hour or so… photos gone, entries gone… MAINTAIN ATTITUDE MAINTAIN ATTITUDE MAINTAIN ATTITUDE!!!!!!!!!!

OK MAINTAIN-DED MY ATTITUDE!!!!
Here we go AGAIN… Feng diao~

ahhh…. I blog tmr k guys on my birthday bash!!
Stay tuned… Gta zZzZz now, tmr is make money day, hafta recharge now…
FENG diao~
5….
4….
3….
2….
1….
Current transmitted…
Recharging in progress….

FENG DIAO~

Chapter 67

Ahhhhh…. I’m sandwiched…
I really dunno who I can talk to…
It’s complicated…
It’s a dilemma… A really sophisticated one…
Neither this nor that… Helpless, direction-less…
I just wanna rant it out….
Ignore this entry cause not all will understand…
Its just a medium to let it out…

I was given a serious talk by him over dinner…
Wanting me to understand how serious he takes this business…
His goal, his family, the unseen pressure he’s undergoing…
Wanting no one to destroy his business…
I fully understand the kind of situation he’s in…
That’s the reason he wants the close bond…
So everyone under him can work tgt towards a common goal…
Having the same vision and achieving individual goals…
And ultimately him achieving his goal…
He wants me to understand he’s not restricting me…
Just that there’s a limit to everything…
Fun is fun… Business is business.. serious business…
He cannot afford to let history repeat…
I understand… I really do…
I hope to be of a great help to him too…
I remember telling him a few days after my promotion…
I want to grow guys…
I want to try my best to help you achieve your goal before I leave for uni…
He really put in his 100% in training me…
I can feel it, I know it… And I have to say I know how serious you treat the business…
But there’s a limit on my side too…
No matter how much I really want to join in the fun with the rest of the guys…
I made it a point to give it up and join you for a meal or so…
Not that I’m complaining or anything…
Everytime we head for what you call after-work-bonding-session, I’ve never shown you the disappointment in missing out the fun with the rest of the guys…
Instead I’m thankful for all the valuable lessons you’ve taught during our personal time out together…
But I need my freedom too…
You’re pulling too hard sometimes… I feel restricted…
But cause you’re one I respect, I don’t want you to feel disappointed…
I’m willing to give up the satisfaction from the fun so as for us to strengthen what you call the bond…
But not all the time and I hope you understand too…
This place I’ve chosen I have to agree its all HARDWORK…
Really hardwork…
I’m already neglecting alot of my friends for the personal development I wish to see in myself, and even forgo-ing the company of my friends for meal out after work with you…
Because I know you’re really good to me and I know I cannot let myself disappoint you..
So hope you don’t make me do it…
You won’t come across here I noe but I just want to let it out…

For this, other guys get involved…
Which makes me feel really really bad…
I cannot be myself…
In front of you, in front of them…
The calls… when you’re around… I have to lie and cover up…
I want to join them in the fun… If I go, i’ll have to lie to you again…
Which I didn’t want…
So how… I just hafta miss it…
And I din want them to know its the dun-wanna-disappoint-you feeling that stop me from joining them as well… So i’ll just hafta say otherwise…
I cannot be myself…
On one hand, I’m under you… On the other, they are the people that made my days here so enjoyable…
Do I have a choice that’s call the RIGHT choice???

That’s not all I have to face…
My family… No matter how good I speak of you to them…
The valuable life lessons, the genuine care and concern…
We can’t deny the fact of your age and gender…
Mum is opposing… saying I’m spending too much time with you…
I told her she’s reading too much into it…
And we had a row because of that…
How am I supposed to say this to you then….

Ahhhhhh…. I feel I’m confined…
The thing now is there’s no one in the wrong…
It’s just complications in relationship…
Too many parties involved… And I’m answerable to every single one of them…
All are people I don’t wanna lose…
But who can I talk to…

Chapter 66

This week is ji-happening-yi-xia….

“Stock market” for me had been fluctuating for this whole week…
Statistics shot as high as 18.5 sets to as low as 8 sets…
Simply felt the ups and the downs…
The greatest satisfaction has got to be ending the week with a BANG…
Kudos to Tim for being there for me….
We had a talk… And I poured it out to him…
All the rejections outfield that I do carry with me on Thurs…
And on Friday… Its all about the focus, the enjoyment…
I came back up again…

There’s this really HAPPENING thing that happen outfield on Friday…
We were in town and I was pitching to this ang mor couple…
They should be in their late 30s…
So I sprayed it on the Ang Mor and he wanted to show how attractive and strong the fragrance can get…
Guess what he did…
He literally HUGGED me!!! And that’s not all…
N tried to KISS me can!!! Luckily I play neh-ball arh…
Know how to dodge… haha…
“Hey what are you doing!!!!” Then he let go…
Gawd… His wife still down there laughing damn loud…
But ang mor lah more open and he’s just trying to be funny…
so I never sue him eat my beancurd…
hahah… so that’s the story of Ang-Moh-Ti-Koh-Pek…

After which was training at KNC…
With the usual feeling and the usual faces…
And the usual distinct line drawn…
Haha.. Only some will understand…
But was less shiong than usual training…
And the most STRESSFUL thing came in at the last part of the training…
Shooting at mid range and far range…
Each missed shot by the 4 shooters “earned” the entire club team of 20 plus ppl a sprint to the goal line and back…
And thanx… The lightings went off when its my turn…
Shooting in the dark… Kong Bu daoOoOo….

That’s abt it… Up with more happenings soon…

Chapter 65

It feels good to be bouncing back=)
Calling out your own team name during primetime and touching the bell once again…
Hopefully I can maintain my consistency and push myself even further…

Yesterday, I went for dinner with Tim…
After which we were chatting about quite alot of stuff…
I realised I doesn’t really know myself well…
For eighteen years going on nineteen…
He was the first to tell me all these stuff I didn’t even realise….
I was asked to write down 10 things I like and 10 things I dislike…
Surprisingly I got stuck halfway through…
I wrote family first for my likes…
Then Tim asked me, “Are you close to your family?”
I replied, “Yep”
Then he asked again, “How well do you know your Dad??”
I gave him a brief answer…
“Is that all??” he questioned…
“Erm… I guess so…”

Then it came across to me, I didn’t know my family well…
For all these years I hasn’t been honest and sincere to my family…
All the thick and thins…
Yes, I’ve been there to see…
But where was I to eradicate the problems…
To avoid complications I always lied to them…
Saying I’m outside makaning or whatever when I’m obviously playing mahjong somewhere…

Tim went through with me every single thing written down on the list…
It sets me thinking…
Being honest and sincere to yourself and to others… How to…
He told me that I will have to think it through myself…
*questionmarkquestionmark*

Manly buddy msg-ed me yest… Lolzxz…
2more weeks… Can’t wait for her return…
Something’s missing in the office somehow…

And poor JingXiang and his butt… hahaha!!!
Orh-bi-quack lorh… Play la….
See…. MC for so many days…

And Ah ney… Skidded from his bike…
Gawd… injured all over… PLs take care alright….

Gna meet up with darling yiwen real soon… haha…
Like finally….