Chapter 76

I’m starting to take back my words…
The satisfaction of improvements from prelims…
The happy-enough-to-pass-all-the-subjects kind of feeling…
It’s really the reality that we have to face…
And not giving yourself the excuse to make yourself feel better…
Cause the fact is you didn’t work hard enough…

Even though it’s within expectation regarding the posting results…
Even though I know the last hope will be smashed sooner or later…
I’m mentally prepared for the outcome and have started making plans for the alternative…
But I’ve really neglected the disappoinment in Mum…

Over dinner, I revealed the last letter to Mum…
Expected… She showed the disappoinment…
“Ok… Now that the outcome are all known… Hmmm… SIM ba”, I told her…
“You better let Dad know”, she replied…

She continued, “SIM ke2 yi3 dai4 shi4 fang1 mao4 mah??”
“Hmmm… Your dad work so hard to support the family… Just hoping the three of you can graduate from university…”
Just a simple question, a simple line..
It was all it took to make me teared…
Silently, we continued our meal, going through motion with my fish n chips…
With tears just welling up…

On my side, it was mere sadness, oh-just-seek-for-an-alternative…
But on theirs… It’s immeasurable disappoinment…
That question made me realised…
I’ve really let them down…

Since young, they were so strict when it comes to academic…
Preparing us one month before exams even in kindergarten….
No tv, no games, no play…
All along, their effort, their time, draws down to painting our future…
They know how it feels like to be not-so-educated…
They just didn’t want us to follow their footstep…
Typical parents, some will say…
But this really show, they care…

And I’ve really disappoint them this time round…
Even though private institute is also a university…
But…. Yep…

I’m sorry…

Chapter 75

The letters came one after another…
I simply scanned through the whole top section of it…
Still pinning on some hope… But the words, that I expected yet hoping it doesn’t appear, just sank in…

We have reviewed your application thoroughly but REGRET to inform you that you have not been successful in your application.

SMU down

NTU down

NUS last hope standing

For the past few weeks… I haven’t been in the mood to do anything…
Working for the sake of working…
I know I’m becoming stagnant… But all these uni stuff kept racing through my mind…
If I were to apply for private, do I continue working at PVI for the next 6 months???
When grey thoughts come along, you tend to start to analyse…
You know what I feel like doing now???
Just buy a ticket and fly to somewhere for a week or so, ALONE…
Sometimes you just feel like escaping… But deep down you know this ain’t the way out…
And this is not what WEELITING should do…
But you just feel you need a break…
To find back your directions once again…

RESPONSIBILITIES vs REALISATIONS

Chapter 74

Sometimes it can get quite entertaining looking at pictures taken years ago…
Haha… Random as it may seem…
Now I know why my friends always says Weeliting does silly stuff…
Cause I really DO silly stuff…
Enjoy=)

Classic!!! haha…

Sir STAMFORD WEE

We tried… we regret… we quit…
haha… stupid pic…

Apparently, Mavis look more retard over here… haha!!!

When 2 silly girls cum tgt, they take silly pics…

and more silly stunts…

haha… there’s more… shall blog bout it next time…
Tt’s all folks!!!
CheezZzeEe…

  

Chapter 73

Special Entry for the Special Someone…

It’s gonna be your day tomorrow…
After the long wait accompanied by the suspense that left you lingering…
I know you’re gonna make it…
Sorry for not being able to make it there to clap for ya…
But haha… I’m always here kay…
No matter what the results maybe, you’re forever the ultimate WA that weeliting is proud to have as a buddy for years=)
So fret not… Coz I believe in you…
JIAYOU LOW!!! I’ll get Koh to scream on my behalf… so prepare to hear her voice tower over others… hahaha…

Chapter 72

 

Hahaha… Haven been blogging and peeps have been asking me for updates…
So here I am….

I’ve been tagged by dear LiJie…

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

Questions:

1. What disappoints you the most?
When the person whom I thot understands me the most seems to not understand me anymore… 

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
A trip to heaven??

3. What’s your favorite thing to do?
Spending time with people I like… Friends, family…

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
NOPEZXZX!!!

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
For now I will say… To get into the ideal course I want…

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
NOoOoOo….

7. What’s the most regretful thing that you’ve done before?
I regret not studying harder =P… but WATEVER!! wat’s done cannot be undone… There’s no ctrl-Z to everything….

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Pinch myself real hard to see if i’m dreaming…

9. What is the most embarrassing thing that happened to you recently?
Being hugged by a angmor in town??? lolxzx…

10. What makes you happy?
Mac’s 60cents cone… (It used to be 25cents last time)

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
Hypocrites…

12. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
Having a good career, earning lotsa money and leading a carefree n HAPPY life… N maybe get married bah… haha…

13. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
High purchasing power!!! Spending money like there’s no limit to it…

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Kinship, Friendship, in fact I see relationships as the most important thing in my life…

15. What do you do when you’re alone?
SLEEP!!!

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
Tt has got to be PUNCTUALITY!!!

17. One word to describe yourself.
Unpredictable…

18. What is your least favourite animal?
Creepy crawlies consider animals??? lizards… ewww!!!

19. Why am i doing this stupid quiz?
Coz i’m tagged…

20. If you only have one more day to live, what will you do?
I will make sure I spend every second of the last day with people I love the most…

Lookout guys!!! You’ve been tagged by Weeliting!!!

1. Lun
2. Shan
3. Kit
4. Mel
5. JinYu
6. Jonathan Low
7. Huimin
8. LiWei

Chapter 71

A random pic to share…. More coming up, so stay tuned=)

Chapter 70

Its 2am… I couldn’t sleep…
Too much going through my mind rite now…
One major topic squeezing dry most of my brain juice is definitely the university admission problem…
Feeling stranded…
While others were putting a big load off their chest after receiving the acceptance, I’m here with all the question marks…
So much as I dun wanna think about anything…
I HAVE to….
Big decisions… It concerns my future…
Have been gathering opinions here and there…
My stand was swayed…
One main factor… I’m answerable to my mum and dad…
This is my life and yes many tell me i’m answerable to myself…
I’ll be really selfish if I do…
I wanna find a way out to compromise…
I would not be here letting out if I could…

I need the trust…
I feel so alone making the decision to go against the both of you from the start…
3 months now… I still think I’m right to be here…
But I couldn’t prove you wrong…
I believe I’ve seen a change in myself…
Maturing through the business…
If it was the previous me, I would have flare up already…
But I really tried my best to talk to you two nicely…
Letting you know how I feel and stuff liddat..
But you are really blinded by all the negative things and skeptical opinions of the job…
I doubt you’ve seen the good changes…

The support… from the only two people whom I love and respect the most…
Is what I hope to get…
For decisions I make…
My studies, my current job, the rare opportunity, and ultimately my life…
I very much wanna grab hold of this rare opportunity…
To go to Malaysia with Cerrin for a 3 weeks road trip…
To experience the different working environment, the different people, the different experience…
You gave me a straight NO…
Giving me a reason being… For what, you don’t need this kind of experience now…
The more I explain my stand and what I feel…
The more nothing else gets into you…

Things indeed doesn’t always go my way…
I feel so distance from the both of you…
Is this the kind of negative I have to face when I just wanna make a choice that I can call MY choice???