Chapter 195

HEEE-LLO WORLD!!!!

I’m back from Perth!
Sorry was really busy with stuff since the day I’m back…
I shall update a teeny weeny bit now first and leave the detailed post to a later date…

And so… after 6 consecutive days of frisbee playing and battling our hearts out on the fantastic fields of Western Australia, we emerged CHAMPIONS of the competition! Woooooo!!!!

The finals was a really tense one.
And we just merely won by ONE point… Super exciting!!

The trip was AWESOME!
And I really had no regrets=)

Chapter 194

15mins more to leave for airport=)

Just some thoughts before leaving.
It was a short time period from the day I started playing the game.
To be able to get to where I am now, was unexpected and it wasn’t easy.
Being the newest girl in this team, isn’t going to be an excuse that it’s okay if I didn’t perform.

In fact, it is the best time now for me to show who I am=)

If I hadn’t decide to step up alone to start playing the game 4 months ago, this opportunity will never exist.
If I sent out that withdrawal message and given up my spot that particular day, I wouldn’t be leaving for airport now.

The runs. All the self training. Sweat. Falls. Pain.

And to stand back up again to decide I’m fighting for my place in the team.

It’s time I make them all worthwhile now.
It maybe the first or even last time. All out!

NO REGRETS!

Chapter 193

12 hours to flight time!!

Woohooo….

2 words for myself. NO REGRETS!

Perform! That’s what I’m going there for=)

Take care everyone!
Will be back in a week!!! Bye!!!

Chapter 192

Two Days to Perth!

Thursday.
OMG! Very fast de!!
32 more hours before I leave my house for the airport!
Just packed most of my stuff, the small luggage is too small!
I’ve finally decided to bring the big one. Aha!

Anyway. Today is results day.
Hmmm… Generally, I did okay.
But, frankly, on my side, I’m not really satisfied.

Macroecons – High Distinction (Ought to and expected to achieve it. Did it.)
Marketing – Distinction (Lucky. Not the ideal grade. But still satisfied.)
Mgmt Accounting – Distinction (2 marks away from HD. Could have done it.)
Commercial Law – Credit (Disappointing.)

Called Dad the moment I got my results.
He was more nervous than me I bet.
He was pleased, “Excellent! For that I give you extra 250 for your trip on top of the air tickets.”
Woah! Happy max!! Haha=)
This is my family. You want something, you got to earn it!

On another note, I know I can do much better than this.
Especially for MAB and Law.
I was pretty occupied by thinking about this the whole day.
But now, I guess it’s time to put a stop.
Work harder the next semester!!!
“The best way to redeem yourself is to right the wrongs of yesterday, Now.”
Thought it through. Over with the unpleasant period. =)

With that, it wraps up Year 1 of my uni life.
Overall GPA of 3.125 out of 4.
I got to really maintain or do even better the coming semesters to achieve my ultimate goal=)

Apart from results and packing today, I went for my run and met Bing for dinner at Northpoint. Was supposed to go for movie with Ali and gang but they couldn’t make it, so we had our “couples retreat” haha.

Finally done with YEN stuff.
But there are still afew more things I need to do before going to Perth.
Shall go do it now. Nite!

Chapter 191

Three Days to Perth!

Wednesday.
THREE more days!!! THREE more days!!!
Got to chop chop settle YEN stuff, start packing, go change money, see doctor to get medication, and and and spend more time at home.

Today, we had a teambonding session at Eugene’s place in the evening.
And I just got home, 2.50am.
The team talk session lasted for like 4hours.
It was a fruitful one for individuals and the team. =)

I need to be more vocal in the team.
That was what most people wrote for my negative comments.
True enough, I’m still holding back.
And it’s really time I got to get out of the comfort zone thinking I’m still new.
I ought to communicate more to contribute.
Being too quiet is just so not me. And I know it =) Change!

As the days draw closer, it’s about time I start setting new goals that I want to achieve at the end of this season.
This experience is hard to come by. It may be my first or even last.
It’s definitely something I know I will never forget.
Challenge my limitations and PERFORM!
That is the reason why I’m going there for.
Ought to keep that in my head to propel me towards my goals.

Alright. That aside.
Academic. Results. In 4.5 hours time!
I feel really really worried and uncertain.
For sure, I know I will never hit my target grades.
I just hope I’m somewhere near. But apparently, I’m really uncertain.
And no confidence this time round.
If I see a “Credit”, I don’t know how to feel.
If I see a ”Pass” in the transcript, I think I’ll be super sad.
Let’s not talk about “Fail”, that should not even appear.
I know I really did put in effort for this sem’s exams, that is the reason for my expectations.
At the same time, it’s really impossible to reach that expectations now, after taking the final tests.
So, I really don’t know how to feel.
I doubt I can sleep well tonight, like again.

Jesus allah guanyinma pls bo bi!!!!

Tried my best. Let God do the rest.
This comforted me for like….. 3 sec. Ah! I don’t want to check the results!!!!

Chapter 190

Four Days to Perth!

Tuesday.
It’s 4.11am now. I’m just done with bathing and unpacking.
Today was a totally CRAZY day.
It is the usual physically tired but emotionally happy feeling=)

It may sound abit sick.
But I’m totally emersing myself in the force-myself-to-shag-out-max kind of feeling.
And I’m enjoying it. Cause how long more can I push myself to such extend.
I simply want No Regrets.

Alright. We had our last frisbee training before IRAUG.
Had alot of reflections today=)
I thought Happy D, did really well today.
Happy D refers to the defence line of the team.
This training was one of my happiest frisbee training.
Erm… I’m not sure how to put it across.
But I feel really happy and motivated today.

And I sort of think back on my first competitive training with the team.
Things are different now. 4 months into the game.
From a try-out-a-new-sport mentality, to a show-that-you-want-it.-you-earned-it mindset.
From anyhow running all over the field blindly, to learning the stacks and cuts and drives.
From throwing a wobbly disc that goes totally out of direction, to being able to make alot better throws with better control.
I felt the difference. And I’m really glad.

I remembered 4th of August was my first ever competitive frisbee training.
And hence, I’ve chosen 48 as my jersey number=)
Hopefully, it will bring me some luck. aha.

Though, training was a positive one, I got to CATCH THE DISC!! GRAB THE DISC!! OWN THE DISC!!!
I need to overcome the fear. Just jump, dive, grab!
It’s a mental thing. And phobia perhaps. To lose to phobia is a sucky feeling.

After 5hours of frisbee, I cabbed down to Ulu P for Netball training.
Heaven was on my side=) hahaa! There’s lightning and abit of thunder and suddenly short-circuit!
Lights off. And training ended an hour earlier. Heh!

Off to meet sixies after that. Nice chillout=)

Super tired now. Off to wash my boots before sleeping!

Chapter 189

Five Days to Perth!

Monday.
FIVE more days!!!! damn fast can. I’m excited! aha!

Today is self-training day.
Met my love, Shanny at Bishan to go for a run.
The happiest thing isn’t about finishing the planned workout, but the people I spent the day with today.
Been long since I saw my dear bud!
We’ve been talking almost everyday, and so busy with our own lives lately, but we never fail to update and motivate each other during this busy period. So happy for all her upcoming opportunities=)

And today, I had a great workout.
But still not ideal enough, I need to be faster, better.
Did runs, sprints, steps and disc abit.
5 more days to hit my peak. Hard but at least I got to be somewhere near.
Not enough. Not enough.

After working out, it’s dinner with Ah Peach at J8.
Catch up with each other, walk around, satisfy my craving for ice-cream, forced him to collect netball shoes with me, he forced me to send him home, Fine. Send him halfway. Haha. Went home.

Home till now, 2.13am!
No time for anything else, but YEN matters.
Got to finalise everything asap before leaving.

Finally done for the day.

Oh my. Tomorrow is a long long day.
Last intensive team training!!! ALL OUT!!! FIGHT HARD!!!

5hours of frisbee, followed by 3hours of netball, back to back.
And then following that, a long awaited Sixies chillout!
Awesome! May I survive the whole of tomorrow, safely!

Chapter 188

Six Days to Perth!

Sunday.
Driving early in the morning.
Followed by entire day spent with dear Bing.

No plans are the best plans.
We ate takeaways, nua-ed at her place, watched movies, do random YEN stuffs, continue watching movies, abit of this and that, and we wondered why the girl kiss the other girl in both the shows, I took peeks while watching Jennifer’s body, she finished her whole box of raisins, and wrote me a really sweet card for for my trip, right in front of me! Aha!

Awesome Sunday. Nice rest day. Great company. Love it!

Random thought:
Nothing is constant. CHANGE is the only constant. No point clinging on to things. I got to learn to detach. You got to learn it too. I changed. You changed. People changed. Lesson here is to fully trust a person, and devote your all to a relationship, trust them until they let you down, but don’t set them up for failure. I’ve pulled enough, but I will never walk away. Just stop pulling. I’m good. I’ve learnt=)

Chapter 187

Seven Days to Perth!

No comments about today.
May tomorrow be a better one.

Chapter 186

Eight Days to Perth!

Friday.
Today, I broke my training chain.
Last night, I couldn’t sleep well at all.
I remember 4 plus am, the pain got so bad, I had to get out of bed.
Get a cold towel and leave it on my back.

After which I could finally fall asleep.
Woke up, changed up, packed all my training stuff.
And head off for my driving lesson. Three hours of driving!!
Circuit, parking, test routes…
Was supposed to rush off for training after that.
But the pain lingers.
I then decided to give my body a break.

Well-taken break though.
Went to popo house to visit her.
Was planning to go next week before my trip, and since I’ve the time now, might as well.
She aged. And she kept mistaking I was going overseas for studies when I kept telling her its frisbee.
In the end I just went along with her mistake. Haha.

She held my hand in hers, raised a *thumbsup* sign, and kept repeating “First! First!” in canto.

My heart melted. =]

Rest day today. Training continues tomorrow.
Off to bed.

Chapter 185

Nine Days to Perth!

Thursday.
I woke up late for Physical Training today.
Cabbed down to Ngee Ann for training.
The sun was merciless, my sweat went dripping away like a tap.

We went for runs, countless sprints, skipping, disc flipping.
It wasn’t very tough. But the heat made it really taxing.
Glad to say. I finished all of it. =)

Five days of non-stop training.
Totally feeling the intensity and sometimes it gets so tiring, I was just blindly going through the training motion.
And till now, I’m still not mentally strong enough.

I feel I’m nowhere near my peak.
Yet, when I pushed myself harder, I felt the restrictions.
Hmmm yup. But no worries, I’m not giving up =)
I just feel that I’m capable of a higher standard of play than this.

After training, I dragged my aching body to wash up and get changed.
And we head off for school to attend the SIM sports night award presentation.
Was looking forward for the buffet in fact. Haha!
Okay anyways…. Received the certificate of Merit for frisbee.
And then it was buffet time!! Aha…

Training training training tomorrow!!!
Last few days before I can finally take a day rest!!!
For the placing. For the competition. For expectations. Go!

Chapter 184

Ten Days to Perth!

Wednesday.
I’m feeling so tired today.
Got to E-N-D-U-R-E!!
I forced myself to wake up early today to do up some YEN design thingy, in preparation for the meeting in the noon.

Attended YEN meeting in school.
Event is more or less confirmed, and we’re in the planning phase now.
After the meeting, me, Cheryl and Angkukueh left for training at WCP.

Hmmm… Today’s training…. not very good.
The sun was damn scorching, and I felt really really tired and unmotivated.
Not many people turn up today too. Meaning, more running!
Today, I did gave myself alot of excuses.
I gave in to the weather. I didn’t push myself hard.
I finished the whole training but I didn’t give my all.
And this ain’t the way it should go!!! Wake up! Kick the excuses goodbye!

Bruises everywhere. Slight sprain at the ankle. Muscle aching.
Pull through it pull through it.
It’s the last few days!!!
Train hard. Play hard.
It’s the last few chances to go through these sort of experiences.
Treasure it.

Reached home at about 11pm.
Finally done with YEN stuff for today. It’s 2.30am now and I’m really tired.
Tired yet happy.
Intensive training continues tomorrow.

Fight hard.